before

we go

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today was good, although busy. but at least i didn’t feel sick like i’ve felt the past few days. and just in time too, or i would have died in army.

it was nice meeting up with you guys today. whether it was just to talk, eat, or hang out. i’m going to miss the freedom of being able to go out anytime with people. my only regret is perhaps having made too little use of that privilege while i had the chance. because from tomorrow on, duty calls.

to those going to army, all the best and lets hope we come out better and not totally destroyed. and maybe we’ll see each other in the midst of our communal hardship.

to those not, i hope we get to meet up sometime soon. maybe when i’m tanned and more fit (: and please don’t be so upset about whatever it is that’s bugging you, alright?

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http://www.youtube.com/user/JustforShowSG

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maybe, we could be friends

transition

flop

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maybe we can never truly figure out who we really are. or maybe thats because such a permanent entity doesn’t exist in the first place. predispositions can influence, but never dictate your being.

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its a new phase of life, in more ways than one. so many things are changing, in ways i wouldn’t have expected. i guess all the ideas i had during ib on what post-ib would be like have missed their window of opportunity to come true. 4 days left, and probably the only things i will do are interviews and packing. i hope i don’t get slaughtered at tomorrow’s psc, i’m starting to think i might really need to get away from this place and have a change of environment. new people, new thinking, new experiences. 

another thing i’ve realised is that all my complaining about my enlistment date being shifted may be unfounded. i mean, if i were going in april, what would i be doing in the meantime? learning driving perhaps. but most of the time being spent rotting at home in front of a computer, clearing various seasons of shows and games. so it might be a good thing after all.

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sighh. apple and their ipad. not that i think it’s a bad idea or anything. i mean, multitouch on an increasingly large screen will certainly be a boon to the tech industry. and i have no doubts they are going to deliver on some sick battery life, as usual. what i can’t stand is the uneducated consumer who buys it thinking that its something else. sure, if you want a really pimped up ebook reader, why not. but a tablet? why exactly would you want to pay double the price of a netbook for a slate that can’t multitask (without being hacked and cracked) if you’re planning to use it as a computer in any form. yes, their shiny capacitive screen is nice to swipe on, but to type? surely you could do better with less extravagance. why exactly would you need a 10 inch iphone. its bad enough that you’re snapping up the 3.5 inch versions claiming to own a brilliant smartphone that can beat everything else in the market. sure, it looks sexy and the games are wonderfully awesome. but is it really that functionally superior. nonetheless, it would be interesting to see what frenzy apple is going to spark off in the tech industry. 

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its been one heck of a run, but its time to move on.

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there are no permanent friends, only permanent(temporary) interests

maybe

or not

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the past 4 days working at MFA have been an interesting experience. actually getting myself acquainted with what’s been happening in the world around us, realising how small we really are, and getting a small glimpse of working life. it could actually be quite fun.

my only grievance so far is the fact that they are making me use a tiny ibm thinkpad for my work. spending 10 hours on that tiny computer is making me lose touch with my own keypad. i mean, what kind of computer doesn’t have a windows button. such inventions shouldn’t deserve to be called computers. at least it has a cool trackpoint, although i kind of miss having the quickness of a razer. but this isn’t permanent, and i will make do.

the work has been rather fun, as far as work goes. researching on kofi annan, and on nuclear issues. typing reports and getting my brain to actually do some work after 2 months of vegetating can surely do no harm. i’m glad i decided to do this (:

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9 was a fairly exciting show. the animation was just awesome, and the plot was good in a short story kind of way. somehow i am reminded of neil gaiman. perhaps it is the seemingly unsatisfactory ending that leaves your mind scrambling to insert its own happy ending. even though it knows, that wouldn’t fit.

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after the disappointing psychological interview, i only hope tomorrow’s nus scholarship interview will go well. and then the psc one on 1st feb. in the meantime i have to figure out how and why i want a safos, or a ministry scholarship. got tips? 

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thank you for being you <3

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run like you mean it

bloop

pop that balloon

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life is generally weird nowadays. its like i’m just floating around, doing nothing but watch shows and play computer games. next week will be spent interning at mfa, trying my best to exercise so i don’t die in bmt, and testing out my army phone. somehow i think mfa will be the most fun, seeing as the new phone has no possible connections whatsoever and i can’t sync it with my comp, and exercising is going to be a pain when work ends every day at 6pm. ohwell.

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sign me

think

thank

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so maybe cambridge isn’t where i’m meant to be. or not yet at least. either way, its okay because i know there’s somewhere i belong. i just have to figure out where that is, and when.

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these past few days have involved mostly watching shows, playing computer, and wondering what i’m doing with my life. OHWELL (:

spent 13 bucks cabbing around today, first from home to mfa and then from mfa to school. where i got to eat fried maggi. yayy. slacking is fun, if you have people to do it with.

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who’s there

45

praise the Lord. i am thankful (:

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today was a wonderful day

fml

i thought i would be able to handle it, but now i know i can’t.

i don’t wanna go.

realigned

reaffirmed

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it feels like christmas loses a bit of its magic each year. ah, that good old christmas magic. the lights, the sounds, the presents, the celebrations. the christmas carols that ring in the air, that make you feel like it truly is the “most wonderful time of the year”. but slowly it fades to card-giving, gift-exchanging. instead of being a month-long celebration, it becomes a few days of tradition.

but maybe its only when the magic fades that we can see the true meaning. after all, what is all that commercialism compared to the amazing truth we should be reminded of in this season. so what if i didn’t feel christmassy or holiday-like this year. its a miracle that i even got to celebrate it at home. when the doctor said that he expected me to stay past the weekend and maybe come out for a while to celebrate christmas. and yet i forget so easily what He has done for me. just as he did 4 years ago with my dengue fever. to think i didn’t even have to be hospitalised for that. 

so remember, daniel. remember.

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the year is ending. and 6th jan will truly mark the end of what has been an amazing journey. and maybe by then i would have figured out what i have gained (to keep) from these 2 years. i have a strong feeling it isn’t what i thought it would be. but who knows, these plans are bigger than us.

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my Lord is sufficient

timely

save

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so i’m back home and back on normal food. its been one shocking experience, now that i think of it. there’s so much to thank God for, like the fact that my mum’s a doctor and recognised the symptoms. that there was a good gastro-intestinal specialist there that night i went into a&e. that the bleeding somehow failed to give me very much pain. that the scope was timed just right for the guilty artery to be clipped up. that the doc decided to give me 2 bags of blood, which turned out to be about the amount i lost over the day going by haemoglobin levels. that the recovery’s been quick enough that i’m home for christmas. blessed indeed.

thank you to all the people who cared, and made me feel better throughout this whole thing. and sorry but your christmas cards are all going to arrive late xD

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i bought a new acoustic-electric today, the ibanez ew20bge. i think it looks different enough to be special, and sounds good enough to overcome my general dislike of acoustic guitars. this is gonna be fun.

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thank you

drip

drop

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so, its Christmas week and i’m stuck in a hospital bed with a drip sticking out of my hand. no food since saturday night, and none till tomorrow afternoon at least. but still, at least i’ve got a computer, internet, tv and friends. came in with a 110 heart rate and breathlessness, and now i’m stuck for a couple of days. had a scope today, and they clipped up a bleeding artery so hopefully everything will be fine soon enough.

thanks for all the visits guys. much appreciate it, made life so much less boring. and at least it distracts me from the starving hunger. the dog is now keeping my tv company. along with that friendship bracelet (gay friendship!)

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time to think