finished

await the return

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so the last paper is now over. and although it wasnt very well done was very horrible, at least its over. so now we shall have to begin tackling the next obstacle in line. project work. but until then, i shall watch anime. watching 3 series at the same time is getting me rather confused. so while code geass R2 episode 12 is downloading, i shall watch macross episode 12. followed by clannad. wonderful aint it.

 

EDIT: just finished geass 12. and it is rather epic. geass spam ftw. although its starting to get highly comical. they should just stick to fighting.

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escape. its the only way.

:(

to think that i honestly believed i could get by with one day of studying. who am i kidding.

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everything falls apart sometime.

everything

means nothing

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feelings. nothing but feelings. temporary, flitting emotions. futile attempts to escape from reality. why is it just so hard to do what you said you would do. to ignore it all. to distance yourself. to kill all semblance of hope for something that will never happen. to think about other things. things that really matter. not just words that can only disappoint and burn. 

but then again. what really matters?

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its only now when the replacement comes that full reality sets in.

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we shed our tears

reflect

regret

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the culmination of factors. the rush of emotions. the flood of reminders. all four corners of the world falling apart. and maybe, just maybe, if you look hard enough, if you believe strongly enough, if you want it bad enough, you can see it. the big picture. the meaning. just for a moment, a quick glance. nothing more. or is it?

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what are we living for. the temporary happiness? the sky high aspirations? the simple smiles? the greater meanings? or are we all searching. always searching. when yet the one Solution sits right in front of us. if we could only lift up our eyes and see. the Light.

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inspire

appeal

please buy.

 

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hwa chong auditorium

7 dollars

4th or 5th July, 7.30-9.30 pm

 

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rojak

mess

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in the words of our CPE. the penultimate paper is now over. only thing left to do is get started on chem, finish studying chem within 3 days, and do well on monday. throughout the holidays i had a vague idea that the exams were coming, but i put it off thinking that it would be easy to study for it. and it was relatively easy, until it came to math and bio. two of my better subjects on the same day. and guess what, i was unprepared. hope i do better for chem.

math was quite very much a disaster. well i guess its just too bad for me. leaving 20 marks of questions blank, the only thing i can hope for is that the time spent on the other questions was worth it and i get full marks for those. anything else, and im doomed.

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and now as i tax my processor, transferring files to my ipod and mega compressing videos in a futile effort to save space while blogging, msning and watching clannad, i am reminded of the 3 books sitting on my table. Chemistry, an IB Course Companion. Year 5 Chemistry Notes, Semester 1 2008. Chemistry HL, Past Year Questions. so much for IB muggers.

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whywhywhywhyme

redeemer’s

blood

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its the morning of the second history paper. i sure hope i remember everything i studied.

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4 days to go. after that, freedom to rush through my ias and other projects.

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i’m sorry God, for not listening. for not centering my life around You. for thinking that my spiritual life was just another aspect of my life, when it should be my whole existence. 

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in Your freedom i will live

fumes

I HATE SCHOOL. OH YES AND I JUST REALISED, I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO LOOK FORWARD TO IN SCHOOL ANYMORE. I GUESS ILL JUST HAVE TO SPEND THE TERMS WAITING FOR THE HOLIDAYS THEN. AND THE WHOLE OF NEXT YEAR WAITING FOR THE END OF IB LIFE. OH HOW WONDERFUL.

epic

fail

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so today i didnt go to school. being right in the middle of the exams, what would you expect me to do? well, obviously not study. and especially not for the exam happening tomorrow. oh no, first of all i woke up late. then i watched anime. then i spent an hour searching for a way to download the next few episodes. and then after lunch i started on bio, making some progress at least. and after that i spent more time searching for download means, since rapidshare gave up on me. not to mention my attempts to fix my internet connection and set up outlook 2007. as of yet, the internet is still poxy.

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if i somehow do well for bio, ill be happy. the second exam when ive started on a new anime series at the start of the exams. maybe japanese is conducive to bio studying. HOWEVER. as for tomorrow’s paper, i feel horribly, inadequately prepared. well, 2 hours to cover 300 pages. probably less than 2 hours, seeing as im still wasting time typing this.

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on a separate, random note. i caught a nice looking insect today. its psychedelic blue-green. now to think of some use for it. maybe it does mid year examinations for a fee. wont that be cool.

if only i had the same amount of discipline in my studies as i have for blogging every single day.

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distractions abound. anywhere and everywhere. and in the midst of the chaos, a Light calls me out. to tell me that He has a plan for me. that He loves me. and yet i look elsewhere for comfort. 

oh to set my feet on the right path.

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fight or die

flames

doused

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another day has come and gone. and with it, hopes and dreams, disappointments and failures. and yet the beauty of it all, or some might say the tragedy, is the simple but ultimate fact that we will not know the identity of its consequences until a good amount of time. to count that a bane or boon, i myself am unsure. is it a blessing to remain in the dark, wondering about the outcome of your labour (or lack thereof)? or a curse to suffer the trauma of suspense, every day, every hour, every moment.

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to think that i did not notice a simple thing like the time on my posts. well since the time on my wordpress is finally corrected, thats one problem solved. with countless left to take their shot at me.

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chinese was relatively fine. not too easy, not too difficult. well, not that theres ever been a chinese paper so hard it just makes you want to break down and cry. nevertheless, when i was writing the essay, i found myself not only thinking in english, but with my words framed in the very same format i see in front of my face right now. the wordpress display. it might be that the idea of writing a blog post as an essay messed around with my mind, or it could be the fact that ive been blogging everyday for a time now.

history was tough, in my opinion at least. the problem with me studying for history is that most of the time, the dates and names that i remember never appear in my answers, despite the fact that they obviously should. somehow i find myself ending off every answer feeling that it is lacking something. time will tell.

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oh its such a pain to see the neon lights, flashing on and off, enough to stir anyone into a fit of epilepsy. especially when theyre screaming out your name. oh if i were blind, and didnt see you.

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singtel called me up today for a survey. i must apologise to them for sounding bored and uninterested, giving them mundane answers for every question. still, thats what you get. pleased to be of service.

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in my head