reprieve

learning to crawl

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HAPPY TEACHER’S DAY TO ALL MY AWESOME TEACHERS!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vBbySmP55sM

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so term 3 is over. and i cant remember much about it, except for guitar foa. i would assume that is a horrible thing, since the end of years are in one month’s time. i sure hope my productivity from the day before carries on for the rest of the year. otherwise i would say that i am well and truly screwed.

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so i went to COMEX today. daniel yeo came over first, then we walked to dover mrt to go to suntec. unfortunately we got off at the wrong stop and had to waste another 40 cents getting to city hall. so we explored the lower levels, and i must say i am severely disappointed with starhub. while singtel is giving away free computers, they are giving away free routers. how fascinating.

we met up with zhang louis and markyeo. and with zhang, there must be endless laughter. and indeed there was. zhang and his antics always prove entertaining. even on the most aimless of days.

our expenditure for the day. mark yeo got his earphones, with which i believe he is extremely pleased. daniel yeo got his ipod charger, which i believe is severely overpriced. i bought a portable on samchan’s behalf, hoping that i got the best value for money for him. and i got my external hard drive. a 500GB Western Digital My Book Essential. which, i believe, goes rather well with my computer. being black with blue lights. pictures below:

http://picasaweb.google.com/danielyeews/Storage

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you are amazing

surprise

just because

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its amazing what a day of contemplation and yes, emoing, can do for you. after a day of feeling lousy in school, and a long time spent talking, i went home. in one night, i accomplished more than i had in a week. i finally finished the 3 pieces of work which had stumped me for the past 5 days. maybe i should be unhappy more.

my brain actually worked today. surprisingly. maybe it was the standing in the rain that did it. 

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teachers day rehearsal today was rather fun. it feels so much better to have no time to do stuff because you were in school, than because you stared at your work and just couldnt do it for 2 hours. i pity and envy the student councillors for staying back so late. the conversations that are a part of doing your duty for the school are always interesting. prefect life seems so much more fun now. dont get me wrong, im happy with my decision to not run for council. its just fun to stay back once in a while.

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just as i wanted it

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off to prepare for tomorrow

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because you never know

state

of mess

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so this is what it feels like to lose your mind

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lost causes, broken dreams, withered hopes

altar call

breakthrough

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despite/because of (depending on how you look at it) my current incapability for coherent thought, i have decided to blog. hopefully this attempt to get gears whirring into motion will drag my brain out from its current hiatus and back into the real world. and maybe, just maybe, the fact that the whole of term 3 has just whizzed by with me doing nothing will register. 

maybe its time to reflect. in the past, each december would see me looking at the year that had just passed and wondering why it had passed so quickly. now, even during the year everything seems like a blur. the days fall like autumn leaves to the ground. so easily swayed by prevailing air currents, yet making almost no impact on the world around. landing silently, softly, unnoticed. and if you arent careful, the tree will be bare before anyone realises.

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whose approval do i need. friends? family? teachers? myself? God’s? or maybe just everyones. in actuality, i think the only approval im searching for is from those who currently disapprove. although i guess thats the only logical answer to the question.

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todays TOK focus day certainly proved enriching. but it also proved how pointless it is (to me at least) to argue on points like the good life and religion. it is almost impossible to determine the true definition of a good life without being accused of forcing ones own ideas onto others. what a suffocating world we live in. 

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http://picasaweb.google.com/danielyeews/Celebratory

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let it be

think

You don’t have to put up a fight
You don’t have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

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i cant wait for COMEX. i want my external hard drive. now.

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i really need to get down to work. but theres so many other things.

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the nadal vs gonzales match was pure awesome. not because of the way nadal won, but because of the way gonzales played the final match. holding off 4 gold medal points. at least he didnt give up. thats the way, put up a fight. even if its pointless.

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If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don’t speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want — good or bad. When you’re finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

weary

back to reality

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so its over. and its with mixed feelings that i say this. 

you may not agree with me, but somehow, i have never felt so good during a concert before. we were never a main event, nothing compared to the big shows like drama. and yet, somehow, this experience has been much too incredible for words to describe. in those two hours or so, i would like to believe, that at least for that moment, we truly were the best. at least in my world.

thanks to everyone for the encouragement. its made me realise, that the festival of arts isnt just about the music. its about the people. the entertainment. the rush of adrenaline that makes singing the school anthem at the end of it all feel so wonderful. its the work you put into it. the bonds you make. the time it takes. just everything about it. 

for those who came to watch the show, i hope you enjoyed it as much as we did. regardless of what happens after the concert ends, its the look on the audience faces that matters. that makes the weeks worthwhile.

for the guitarists. thanks for all the effort. sorry if i was randomly moodswingy and stuff. but you guys did a great job. <3

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and now, its back to reality. 4 IAs to be done this weekend. studies to catch up on. after missing a whole 2 weeks of chem lessons, i have no idea what kinetics is about. and yet i still cant bring myself back to earth. this feeling of elevation is much too addictive for me.

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its good to have you with us
even if its just for a day. 

wait

anticipate

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tomorrow is the day. the final festival of arts performance of the year. the culmination of our efforts. i only hope we pull it off well. and yet, ill never know. because after all, one can never be at two places at once.

and everyone knows honesty is an expensive commodity in our current times.

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i never expected to have a full house. but seeing as how everyone was rushing for tickets today, i must say its quite a shocker. all thats left is to see how many of those tickets actually translate to seats. 

to think that we’d have to get permission to sell standing room tickets. the world is full of surprises.

after this is all over, ill have a lot of catching up to do. wish me luck.

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and beyond.

elevation

a state of the mind

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is it just me, or did the wordpress interface get inverted. i always thought the links to dashboard were on the right side. oh well.

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3 days to FOA. its still not too late to get tickets and get amazed by our wonderful guitar orchestra.

i find it highly amusing how i can belatedly realise how fun guitar actually is only 3 days before concert. still, 3 days is enough time to enjoy the guitar practices. although i pity all those muggers who suffer in the cpa trying to study while waiting to go on stage. its so much more fun to just sit and talk. and soak in the moment. of course. some people have more interesting things to amuse themselves with (:

so now i know that i can easily get high around louis and joshua lim. and its not just because tony is such an amusing awesome guitar god. man. the retarded things we do.

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its funny how easily we change. i have a feeling that if there were no one around us to remind us, and nothing to record our lives, we would never believe that we had ever thought any different to our current views. so easily our interests change. what i would be tremendously interested in at this time last year no longer holds any attraction for me. for now at least. 

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priorities, eh.

ergh

because

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life just sucks sometimes.

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out for the whole day in school, coming back after moving stands and guitars back and forth, with no mood to do any work whatsoever. until you realise that you have two giant pieces of work due the next day, and despite having to leave class for practice at 11, you conveniently miss none of the lessons involved. 

and whats more, my guitar now has a crack in it. how sad.

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maybe, just maybe, it wouldnt make a difference even if i tried.

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just, whatever.

blurred

understanding

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china is really something quite amazing. watching the olympics opening ceremony yesterday made me wonder if the athletes there for the games should be feeling amazed or intimidated. i mean, such a large scale performance with so many thousands of people, all perfectly synchronized. talk about deterrence. if they can get so many people to move at the same time, to run in perfect circles and form up in absolutely flawless formations, who knows what else they can do. rising power indeed.

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so our full run on thursday wasnt as bad as i though it would be. somehow we got her seal of approval. even receiving commendation for the variety in our programme. the only thing thats left to do is to brush up all the pieces and make sure that we know what we are playing. and somehow she got the idea that i was pro, even though i screwed up some of the songs. oh well, looks like im gonna have to practice that stupid concerto this weekend. maybe ill get it right. eventually.

its not too late to buy tickets! look for me or any other guitar orch member for your once in a lifetime chance to catch FRETS 2. get ready to be amazed.

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i collected my contacts yesterday, wasting 1 and a half hours at the shop putting them on and taking them off. leaving with my eyes totally red. at least today i took a lot less time to put them in. now, with my lenses on, i can read what i’m typing, but not very clearly. its like its clear but still blurry. as though i stole someone else’s glasses to wear, or im looking at the world through a screen of water. i only hope its normal. for now.

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its amazing what music can do to people. the emotions it can bring out, the utter unison with which we sing. community singing is something we should do more often. 

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3 short days, so much to do.

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because she waits for no man.