enlight

delight

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finishing my tok essay and making the decision to just enjoy the rest of the holidays has been strangely liberating. coupled with the wonderful season of christmas (although it does lack some carolling and christmassy spirit), its been a rather happy past 3 days. despite the fact that i might have enjoyed it more if there were parties out with friends, or movies, im happy with the way things are. younger cousins provide some interesting entertainment. as do computer games. that and season 2 of lost which i’ve just started on, since heroes has ended.

oh i love being high for no reason at all. well, maybe not for no reason, but still. its fun. (:

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today’s jamming session was exciting stuff. my first time in a studio, and despite the shabbiness, it was an experience. so thats what it feels like to have overdriven amps blasting into your ears in a small room. just to hope our single practice session is enough for tomorrow. (: 

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MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. or boxing day. but mainly christmas.

the post-christmas sales sound terribly awesome. maybe i shouldnt have bought my shoes before christmas and cashed in on the mega discounts now. but ohwell. hopefully ogl camp is fun enough to replace shopping and movies in the last few days of the holidays.

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thanks for all the presents, well-wishes and cards. they are much appreciated (:

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http://picasaweb.google.com/danielyeews/Christmas2008

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when we slide together

we generate sparks

seasonal

i <3 happiness. its a fun place to be.

 

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE EVERYONE.

wishful

hoping

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the evangelistic concert thingy was a timely reminder. with such reason for the season, what cause do i have to be unhappy or dissatisfied? is it not enough to have what we have. the freedom, the time, the health, the friends, the material possessions. and yet we can’t help but want more. after all, why stop at this when you can have so much more. more friends. more possessions. more love. oh to realise how rich we all already are.

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my tok essay is not moving. i had better get it done by tomorrow. so that christmas can be a work free one.

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this month has been a rather special one. lots of new lessons. lots of changes. lots of realisations. not all for the better, but i guess its all part of learning. now all that’s left to do is remember what ive learnt. and then maybe, just maybe, next year will be an even better time than this year.

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smiling helps a lot. no matter how illogical it may seem to you. to smile is to feel happier. so try it some time, wont you. 

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group outing was fun. SALTEZERS FTW. admittedly, it isnt quite the same when 7 of the 10 other people you go out with couldnt possibly be considered to be part of your age group. still, new experiences are interesting all the time. not to mention, twilight was a rather nice show. it could be that my expectations had been lowered by all the lousy reviews and bad impressions friends had. or maybe its because i never read the book. either way, as fantastical as it is, i enjoyed it. that’s what we all really want, after all, deep down inside. superpowers. love. adventure. ah yes. fun stuff.

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i love the whole world

if only things were that simple

rearranged

in more ways than one

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im finally done with the stupid chem revision package. and it took me a full day plus last night to do it. which means that i couldnt play comp yesterday and today, and my tok is nowhere nearer to completion. argh.

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its funny how often we find ourselves not knowing what we want. we have some general ideas: we want happiness. we want fun. but how? more often than not, we have no idea. and vague hopes and goals aren’t gonna get us anyway. its only if we can find our focus, find a face, or a specific item to fix our sights on, that we find ourselves once again with purpose.

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its been a rather strange week for me, one that went by in a blur. i vaguely remember having fun, doing work, and slacking. but for some reason i can’t seem to think coherently at this moment. it could be all the numbers and letters that now fill 8 pages of chem homework. it could be all the music blasting from my computer speakers. it could be the general mess that my room is in now. whatever it is, i doubt im gonna do any work tonight. i want a break, whether i deserve it or not.

*edit: i know the word for it. thinker’s block.

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a dark room. just you, and your thoughts. ideas bouncing off the walls. questions running in circles around you. hopes and aspirations straining to burst free of the confines of the room. fears and despair lurking in the pitch black corners. can you survive?

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losing touch

enjoy

life

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ah crap i typed this entire post out then wordpress crashed on me. here goes again.

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yesterday was fun. thanks for the lunch guys, even if not everyone talked to everyone, the company was awesome fun. and wonderfully amusing too. even more amusing than the weird food with the weird names. family dinner with the cousins was really fun too. especially watching uncles 20 years older than me playing guitar hero with cousins 10 years younger than me. fascinating mix of ages eh. and i must say, theyre not bad. not bad at all. they died considerably less than i might have expected. 

today was just as fun, if not more. although the rain delayed our tennis plans by quite a bit, at least it gave us more time for guitar hero. and by we i mean mark yeo and me, since the rest were either not here yet or playing tennis in the rain. still, a whole day of slackering does one a lot of good. at least, when it comes to emotional wellbeing. guitar hero, tennis, guitar hero, red alert 3, guitar hero. ah such awesome fun. things are always interesting when you throw zhang adwyn rene tony together in front of a guitar hero set. with isaac and his awesome voice there to even out all the craziness. and thanks guys for the presents even though you already got me one. (:

i still havent decided whether to upload the videos on facebook or not. speaking of facebook, im now addicted to word challenge. go play it. its fun. (:

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i <3 the killers track pack i downloaded. now i have human and mr brightside on guitar hero. yayz. too bad its so ex.

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plans for the week:

tok

read world lit texts

christmas cards

watch movies

 

anyone think ill actually succeed?

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http://picasaweb.google.com/danielyeews/17thBirthday

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my sign is vital

my hands are cold

and i’m on my knees

looking for the answer

losing touch

at life

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back from camp. it was better than i expected in ways that really mattered, but worse than hoped for in others. and therefore i conclude that it was a good camp. a year ago, i would have given a day-by-day recount of things i did. but somehow i can never find the effort to do so nowadays.

this camp was a peculiar one, unique in almost every way. first of all i dont think ive ever gone for a church camp wondering why there were so few speaker sessions. i usually get bored of speakers and just wait for the games, but this time i wouldnt have minded more sessions. next, i didnt play cards at all, which i thought were a permanent fixture of my church camp experience. for a last night in camp with no lights out, i was surprisingly bored. apart from wandering around with zeke and then kevin, i doubt i did much else but play 4 rounds of scattergories. which is a fun game, i must say. but somehow the time flew anyway and i only slept for about an hour. and something else. somehow i dont seem to be using my phone as much as i used to. to think i used to stay up to sms at camps. sleeping is so much more fun. although not as fun if the person next to you is snoring like a machine gun.

when camp first started, i guess i didnt really like it very much. i mean, the only guys my age were all in the camp committee, and im too used to having people around to complain with. but by the time it hit the first speaker session, i realised something. it was a church camp. i was there for God. the friends and the fun were a bonus, but the main focus could not be forgotten. so why should i be complaining about having fewer people to talk to, when i really should be talking to God. and its only when i realised that that i could begin to get my priorities right. and have a much more real experience.

this is what we were destined for

a love above all else

with You our King.

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this year’s birthday has been rather awesome. first an extra early birthday present which is totally awesome, given by my totally awesome friends. then the fact that i became seventeen at a church camp. and then all the well wishes from churchmates and groupmates. and then the totally awesome swiss army knife from a totally awesome friend (: and the phone calls. although i must apologise for being half asleep while talking. i probably fell asleep 3 minutes after hanging up. sorry XD

thank you peoples.<3

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are we human

or are we dancer

pause this game

you just call out my name

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madagascar is just awesome. and im quite sure this one was a lot better than the first. it was funny AND nice. so, if you haven’t watched it, go watch it!

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camp starts tomorrow. i suppose itll be a good break from the mundane schedule of holiday life now. seeing as holiday life happens to consist mostly of stoning, watching shows, playing games, and attempting to do work. when all i want to do is go out. ohwell.

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back on my birthday.

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http://picasaweb.google.com/danielyeews/KotaKinabalu2008

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youre what keeps me going

extended entrapment

ITS OVER. FOR NOW. ON TO TOK AND WORLD LIT AND WHATEVER THE HOLIDAYS HAVE IN STORE FOR ME.

 

i sure hope i did a good enough job though.

to think

is to bleed

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i conclude therefore that thinking is detrimental to your mental health and that we should all be happy fools finding joy in everything around.

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I’m back, back in town
and everything has changed
I feel, feel let down
The faces stay the same
I see, see shadows
Of who we used to be
And I drive, drive so slow
Through this memory

And we were only kids
And we were best of friends
And we hoped for the best
And let go from the rest

I heard, heard myself
Say things I take back
If I could, could retell
And make these stories last
I see, see shadows
Of who we’ll always be
I drive, drive these roads
That made our memories

And we were only kids
And we were best of friends
And we hoped for the best
And let go of the rest
With shadows and regrets
We let go of the rest

Everything has changed
Faces stayed the same
Everything has changed
The faces stayed the same

And we were only kids
We were best of friends
When time couldn’t end
The world in my hands
And we were only kids
And we were best of friends
And we hoped for the best
And let go from the rest
And shadows and regrets
We let go of the rest
Shadows and Regrets
We let go of the rest

refractions

are altered reflections

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so im back. holidays are an amazingly good time to think about stuff, but i being myself, nothing productive came out of that thinking. other than the decision that i am going to climb mount kinabalu at least once in my life. that is, if i can find the friends to do it with me. kota kinabalu was fun. photos will be up soon (read: eventually), and possibly a longer post about what we did there. for now though, my brain isnt working too well. which is one of the reasons i dont really like flying. if i ever fly to the usa or something again, i shall have to get my hands on some sleeping pills.

i think that beach resorts and mountains are awesome places to go on holidays with friends.

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so now that im back, reality has once again dug its claws into me. EE, TOK, World Lit, band stuff. birthday, christmas, youth camp, ogl camp. sigh what happened to holidays. time to get started on my work then.

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i want a love that will last