of all hearts
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my God is truly amazing. i find it just wonderful how he works in such mysterious ways that we can’t comprehend. for instance, a passage that was discussed in YAM came up in my devotions yesterday. and my seemingly flippant choice of songs when i led worship today tied in so well with the speaker’s message. and all in all they tie in together to serve as a reminder that we have got to rely on him, and not our own strength.
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it frightens me to realise how little i truly know about my faith. i mean, i know the basics, and the foundation i suppose. but when it comes down to defending or explaining it, i find myself sorely lacking in ability. perhaps its time to take my religion more seriously. it is, after all, the only thing that truly matters in this life. i’ve been to busy trying to chase all these paths that seem to offer some possibility of happiness, or enjoyment. and even though i know that my priority should be fixing my life spiritually and allowing God to make everything else fall into place, i just can’t seem to let go. what does it mean to rely on His strength and not our own? how do i know that the promptings i hear are from Him and not merely manifestations of my own desires. after all, the human mind is a terribly devious one.
i want to need Him more.
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ord is coming, and to be honest i’m not really looking forward to it. the fact that i have only 2 months left, with 20 days off and 10 days leave, makes it seems all so real. it used to be something far away at the end of national service, that pot of gold at the end of the rainbow that didn’t really need to be taken seriously. but now it’ s looking more like the end of a dream, or should i say a dream-like existence. because i’ve been so blessed with my NS posting that real life isn’t exactly looking very attractive. i’d have to deal with real problems, real responsibilities, real consequences. which only goes to show how good a job i’ve been doing of putting off everything for the past 2 years.
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tree of life was a strange show. i totally failed to appreciate the extended sequences of galaxies, cells and dinosaurs, backed with classical music. as much as i like shows that make you think, i usually require some use of words to trigger my thoughts. else i just get bored. at least it got better in the middle. still, i just dont feel it deserves all the ratings it seems to have online. or maybe i’m just too uncouth to comprehend its beauty. and to top it off, all that popcorn made my jaw ache for 2 days.
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give me fire
